The interesting thing about the attitudes of inferiority and superiority is that they are two sides of the very same coin. We call this coin “lack of self-confidence”. Mentioning anything that has the word ‘self’ in it as a positive can be seen as a big no-no in Buddhist circles, but for the sake of our personal and collective sanity, I think a clarification of this matter would be highly useful.
The first time I found myself actually experiencing total rest, there was an almost immediate emotional/intellectual reaction, a deep unease and even fear, and that was the first time I realized that my habitual self-centeredness (a.k.a the ego), was not going down without a fight. So if I’m going to tame the habit, it is going to take real work.